Every sleep
Has another bad dream
From which I am roused
Feeling desperate,

Being panicked about
Seeing monsters
Some might agree
Appear real

In that theater
Of possible deaths

Accompanying screams
Between bedsheets

While sweating so much
After watching
These horrible scenes
On repeat –

Where bodies alone
Remain lifeless,

And emptier souls
Wander mansions

Our frantic brains
Keep escaping
Like fears unknown
Deep inside,

When killers set loose
Pursue meaning
Through darkened halls
Hiding demons

Laughing at prayers
Stealing promise
From each short breath
Calling God

As shadows will lunge
Even speaking
Christ’s good name
Growing doubtful

Unexpectedly lost
Despite seeking
Another way out
Besides faith.

Such terror exists
Beyond nightmares
Plaguing my thoughts
Always worried

How tomorrow’s dawn
Implies doctors
Or hospital stays
Without end –

More torture
Stalking each sleep
Like a symptom’s threat
Chasing wishes

For the peacefulness
Never experienced
Leaving behind
What is cursed.

Morning still comes
Ever hopeless,

Having lingering pain
Merely looming

Over throbbing eyes
Now defeated

By waking up sick
Once again.

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I deserve this pain
As it comes
From failing to claim
Every moment
Where agony waits
Without patience
While happiness takes
Fewer turns

Than our suffering
Growing content
After weeks spent now
Finding answers
Never worth their weight
In successes
Overshadowed by fear
Feeling tough

When symptoms last
Beyond stretches
Like grieving wounds
Getting better
But crying still
Through their bleeding
Along each cut
Left behind

The surgeon made
Playing God
Believing hope
Was his hubris
Or your judgment calls
Choosing torture
To avoid real death
Through short hell

Not knowing what’s true
Looking white
On tables cold
Seeking heaven
Only finding knives
Despite angels
Now guiding his hands
Making holes

Until constant beeps
Open eyes
Soon waking up
Merely praying
That devil we chose
Was worth sinning
Though my penance
Just cannot agree.

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Dear WordPress family,

I always want to take certain opportunities to thank you for all the continued support. Your likes and comments continually inspire/facilitate my writing in ways that I couldn’t even begin to adequately describe. I especially appreciate everyone for embracing me and being so kind upon my comeback to daily poetry posting after months away.

That being said, I have been silent for the last week due to a very important event. My wife has recently finished a successful open-heart surgery and is on the road to recovery. We are very blessed, but things are still tough, and her healing is going to a long and arduous journey.

I will be writing again soon. In the meantime, your prayers and best wishes will sustain us through this difficult time.

Love always,

• J. Pigno

Don’t let me be
That man,

The kind who is forced
To remember

Every kiss on your head
After laughing
For hours on end
Before sleep –

An empty husk
In his place,

Letting sacred space
Grow decrepit

With further thoughts
Fearing sadness
Where hope once remained
Most intact,

Now watching you go
Lacking choice

Or glimmer
Of determined faithfulness

Caught through those eyes
Always shining
Even when fate
Seems unkind.

No true love’s spark
Ever dwindles
Despite what winds
Feel intrusive –

These immortal nights
Facing windows
Delivering chills
Barely there

Within bedrooms
Watching each star
Between sheets
So warm and inviting

Burst like suns
Always distant
But nearer than God
Might reveal

While seeing you
Merely content,

Noting heaven
Appeared much closer,

Never going away
Finding meaning

But choosing me
Somehow instead.

This is how I knew
She believed,

Finding twin flames
Rare as real evidence
How miracles thrive
Despite trade-offs
Waiting behind
Better days.

Our marriage
Was worth getting here.

Now tomorrow
Just carries more meaning.

Make memories proud
Being tested.

Have faith
Because we’re enough.

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Such artistry
In my veins
Is protection
From every emotion
Against those
Who scathe this spirit
And ravage belief
With their words

As imperatives
Based on each line
Denied by a world
Seeking answers
Among false gods
Never showing
Some heaven
Existed at all

Like plagues
Without any proof
But our progress
Biblically challenged
By collapsing skies
Growing hotter
Or the constant cold
Getting worse

Where daily droughts
Only speak
Through promising clouds
Always passing
Before that rain
Even opens
Upon bad ground
We have sown

Across dry lands
Facing death
Implied by sun
Nearly blinding
Those whose rhymes
Provide solace
When lyrical storms
Offer cures

Now nourishing blood
Keeping faith
And beautifully held
Deeply shielded
So infectious lies
Never enter
Some sacred space
Still alive.

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I always keep
Drawing a blank
When it comes to
Remembering feelings
Which inspire these words
Still regardless
Of what circumstance
Stifles each phrase

As verses untold
After waiting
For years behind grief
Merely mounting
Upon those fears
Besides fortunes
Accompanying ills
Less inclined

To foster these lines
Based in youth
Or powerful needs
Building fire
With cascading flames
Over struggles
Where blood like sparks
Spills its truth

Among cinders
Sharing their light
When expression implies
Growing faithful
Finding prayers
Experience dictates
More than our dreams
Ever could

While staying at home
Playing games
And watching TV
Until sickness
Claims this life
Getting angered
Letting dangerous times
Hold me back

Seeing evening news
Predict ends
No writer should hope
Ever happens
If machines control
Future poems
Soon spreading that germ
Greed becomes.

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There are rooms
Inherent to dreams
No words could explain
Upon waking
Like windows
Without any context
Peering inside
What has passed

Where context
Escapes every sight
And meaning devolves
Into subjects
Barely described
Beyond feelings
Vaguely defined
Through our thoughts

Which struggle
When witnessing scenes
Pictured on screens
Flashing static
As childhood haunts
Remain vacant
While analog worlds
Appear dark

Between each frame
Kept apart
Through assembled clips
Growing faded
After edited lives
Play on repeat
With white noise soon
Juxtaposed

Against evidence
Blaring so loud
That memories dwell
Among specters
Removed from view
Merely waiting
For another odd sound
Coming close

Behind signals lost
Now believed
To be secret truths
Long forgotten
Hearing old cartoon’s
Distant music
During background shows
Late at night.

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I’m afraid this is
Really not living,

Being scared of an end
Every second

And reminded
Happiness lingers
Beyond what fears
Remain strong –

Like memories
Yet to be made,

Or a poem
That seeks being written,

Before this death
Which eludes us
Each second we seek
Where it waits.

Only ghosts
Find answers so close

As the rest must yearn
For their slumber

Still hiding in dreams
Every evidence
Of meaning outside
Pleasant thoughts

Within memories
Caught at fate’s brink

When our history turns
Into nightmares,

Facing truths untold
While they happened
But revealed too soon
During sleep –

Since daylight
Haunts me instead,

Waking up
From visiting family

Or being home once more
Without symptoms
Instilling such dread
Morning brings,

Wishing faith
Just wasn’t entrapped

Behind these eyes
Asking heaven

How tomorrow’s pain
Obscures mysteries
Now almost solved
Laying still.

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